Fate

How do you respond to a chain of events that could not have been preplanned?  When you sit next to a wonderful woman on the plane looking to adopt a baby and your pregnant teenager is looking for suitable parents to raise her baby: do you think that is fate and embrace it or just a coincidence and ignore it?  Or when you attend the same event as an adventurous business woman who wants to invest in a company that does what you have been dreaming about for decades, do you ask her to meet with you to discuss your mutual dream or let the chance slip by because the timing is bad?  



Today has been that kind of day.  In meditation today, I had a unique insight.  In this vision, I found a ladder that took me up hundreds of feet from the cave I had meditated in each morning for a decade,  to a beautiful garden at the surface, fully blanketed in sunlight and beauty.  This path illuminated a new path for me, geographically close to where I have been but no longer a private, protected space.  Still, the feeling here was wonderful, I felt as if it were perfectly suited for me.  As I turned to glance back at the cave entrance from where I had originally descended, it collapsed before my eyes.  This was my new path, my old path was no longer viable and I had been guided here, by fate.

Later that day I found a dollar bill on the ground.  Think back to the last time you found a dollar bill, I suspect it has been a long time.  I find pennies, and though rare, I find the occasional quarter.  The last time I found a paper bill, it was a $5 bill and it gave me the feeling that things were about to change for the better, which they did.

Immediately after that, I had a meeting with my boss who shared with me that he is leaving the company.  Although I won't share his reasons, I will say that he told me that my efforts to instill game-changing responsible business practices might be more successful if I were to do it from a higher level in the company - his level.  He will be leaving in the next two weeks and hopes that I take this opportunity to step out and take the lead. He pointed out specific challenges I would have and obstacles I would, no doubt, have difficulty overcoming.  I got the feeling that he was saying that if I couldn't do it, no one could.

A role like this would allow me, if successful, to literally change the world, an act I believe I was born for.  It would also be a new adventure for my family and may change the dynamics of things at home.  It means more money, more travel and more support needed from everyone.  It can't be just my decision, it will be a family decisions.

So, what do you do when the stars align but the timing is problematic?  Sharing more that I usually would on a blog, I need to pray about this.  With God and my family behind me, who can be against me?  The question now becomes, is God and my family behind this?  Without their support I will willingly walk away.  I do believe in God's will and I only have to be willing, to be used in great ways. I am willing.