Inagural blog

I write this blog, the first of my personal blog site, at 30,000 feet in the air on the way to San Diego for a Board meeting. I struggle with balance between my complex and globally relevant job and my beautiful wonderful family. I cannot be without both worlds or I am out of homeostasis. There is a lot of guilt in this conundrum, because I am constantly accused of being too committed to the "other" world. Can I not be me? Can I not be the complicated and multifaceted being that I am? Must I pretend that the "other" side of me does not exist? So this is my summary of me.


I am a leisurely walk through a farmers market
I am a wife who leaves notes in her husbands lunchbox
I am a slow runner who enjoys the hills
I am a mother who scratches backs and kisses foreheads
I am a humanitarian, even at work
I am a vegetarian but I think I am OK eating fish
I am a woman who likes toe rings and long hair
I am a lifelong student who wants to teach
I am a dancer in my livingroom
I am happy drinking wine while I cook
I am one who enjoys food for nourishment, joy and comfort
I am a warrior for things I believe in
I am intimidated by people smarter than me
I am drawn to people smarter than me
I am one who loves holding babies
I am a hard worker and I work fast
I am a reader of books and people
I am an observer of intention and patterns
I am afraid of rejection
I am finding that if people do not love the real me it is OK to be rejected by them
I am a fixer of inconsistent processes, unplanned obstacles and broken hearts
I am a catalyst for those ready for one
I am the driver of a hybrid and the composter of kitchen waste
I am a sister to the best brother and daughter to the best parents
I am my own version of beautiful
I am going to grow old gracefully and outrun it where possible
I see the potential in everything from old buildings to new babies
I am still becoming me
I like me

This blog will witness the journey I go on, the obstacles I face and the battles I win. Join me.